To those that have known me for most of this journey, you know I am an open book with my emotions. I am sure the jury is mixed on whether it is a good thing or not. I believe being open has helped me to raise money and touch lives but I know some probably believe I should be a little more private. To me there is never really a decision as to what I say or don’t say. I have to remain true to me and that has always been to open my heart. Right now as I close out this week, my heart is full of frustration and concern. Two weeks ago I wrote about the joy of training with no pain. On the very next day after that post, pain in my surgically repaired foot developed. It does not appear to be tied to the tendon thus it is not tied to the surgery but it is in the same foot that has experienced pain more times than not over the last few years. I started this week with a trip to my PT, Chad Beauchamp at Repair Sports Institute on Monday. On Tuesday I had an early morning MRI and then a trip to Dr. Dan Geller. The MRI confirmed the tendon is okay but there is some swelling in the tibia…….per doc the exact diagnosis is a subchondral bone marrow edema in the distal medial tibia. It is not a fracture but it does put a damper on running. The strangest part of the injury is that I can jump around and could probably run without pain. If a tissue grazes the ankle, however, extreme pain!!
This takes us to the weekend. On Satruday I had a 6 hour ride scheduled. I took off and was happy my pedal stroke did not create any pain. Instead the pain came from vibration……rough road or bumps as examples. This created a lot of pain which MAKES NO SENSE!!!!!!!!! I just pushed forward and was happy to be getting in the ride. I was at about mile 56 when I hit the Back Bay in Newport Beach. I actually hate riding this area because there are runners that take up the bike path and generally folks that don’t respect the ‘Bikes Only’ signs that line the road. I always enter very late on the path where I would guess there is at most a ½ mile before I exit to the road. All was good. I was calculating my path back to my car to refill my hydration when a guy in front of me decided he would turn around in the middle of the path without looking to see if anyone was behind him. He had no helmet on and he was wearing ear buds. Needless to say I could not stop in time. While better than my 2013 crash into a car, this was not what I hoped for my day. I hit the ground. My left hip, tail bone and heel were sore right after the ride. Today I would add shoulder pain and knee pain. I will heal. I need to know if my brand new bike is salvageable. I cannot afford any down time. Without running, I have to be strong on the bike and swim. I will walk the marathon if I have to but I better be prepared to kill it on the bike. Anyway, my brain has been reliving the last crash and the last time I had to throw my Specialized Shiv into the trash can. That coupled with the pain from the injury on my right foot have me in a weakened frame of mind.
On a good note, I did manage to suck it up from the pain and complete my 6 hour ride yesterday. My wife came and picked me up after the crash. After I got home I hobbled to the bike trainer and rode for 2.5 more hours. Today I was supposed to get in a 3 hour ride but I am too sore and afraid pushing through might lead to a different injury so I am taking it easy. I will get checked out tomorrow and make sure all is well. I will also get the bike checked out and pray for good news. All in all, I got in 9 hours of riding this week and 6,000 yards of swimming. This is far from where I want to be but I will get there.
All of this is what it is. I, of all people, know that life will present challenges. I know any journey is full of challenges and obstacles but I do sometimes wish God would stop finding me worthy of hard times. For now, I can only move forward and give 110% of the me that is healthy. I must give even more as it pertains to fundraising which continued to be light this week which truthfully was expected although I still check the mail with anticipation hoping a donation has arrived. Right now is about planning the next events that will generate funds……5K, t-shirts, Man v Bar, Community Team, garage sale, Drag Queen bingo, the next round of letters and a geriatric escort service……..whatever it takes J .
That is it for now. Not to play on the bad events of the week but I really could use some support right now. If you hate cancer…….join the Road to Kona by clicking the donation link above.